You're seeing life by the tip of the cigarette
You look around but there's no one there
When the empty cup means the end of the day
You want to ask her one more time to stay
So you light up and pick up the phone
But that's when you remember she's gone
While filling up to make things right

You wonder if you can make it through the night

 - Can you take it any longer?

Maybe you just need something stronger

You feel like you're sinking in your chair

You should know by now Life was never fair

But still we dare to hope, and to pray,

That one day she'll come back to stay

One more sip, let our sunken eyes gaze

But we can't make anything out in the haze

Another bottle to our left, ashtray to the right

To help us dodge the nightmares tonight

 - And when there's no more strength to borrow

We just hope we make it to tomorrow.

With this breath of smoke and alcohol
I could have the world, I could have it all
And with this broken mirror on the wall
I could have the world, I could stand tall
I have my eyes, my hands and my voice
Whatever I do with them is my own choice
And I choose to face the mirror everyday,
Face the mistakes of the past and the ones on the way
With a glass and a lighter some might say
But with a clear head, and I face them anyway
So what if my scars show in the sunlight?
Let them glow, let them be fierce and bright!
They're past, and past is irretrievable
And the future has always been unknowable
So live for today, for the mirror on the wall
And you can have the world, you can have it all.

London at Night

Under another cold starry night at London

I stand alone smoking all my fears away

Notions of crickets are brought by the wind

In between the roaring sounds of a busy town

I spot a cat’s eyes floating among shades of grey

And I wonder if I just made another friend

Blurred by the fog there are planes and lights,

And my body’s shaking from the strange weather

This cat purring on my lap almost feels like home

But home is a world away, under a sun so bright

Where the warm falling rain feels much better

Than this cold wind that is freezing me to the bone.

So we finally are where we’ve always wanted to be,

Kissing life in the mouth while dreams come true

Who would’ve thought it would feel so good?

It’s as if there were a thousand words inside of me

And none was perfect enough to be heard by you

But after all, perhaps neither they should…

My body’s still sitting here, absorbing the night

Even though my mind’s reaching for the stars

That the clouds are trying to hide in the blue

However, the young clouds are losing this fight

So between sights of planes and sounds of cars

I can’t forget that these stars look down on you too.

Tainted Grey Skies

Tainted grey skies

And wicked lullabies

Old memories or dreams

Closer than they seem

And your hand no longer in mine.

A childish laughter

An old man’s cry

A heart’s slaughter

A glass drank dry

And your smile no longer shines.

A howl in the wind

Bodies embracing sin

Smoke in a dark room

A mind and its doom

And your hand no longer in mine.

An empty bottle on the table

A red rose on the floor

The strong growing fable

No knocks on the door

And your smile no longer shines.

Hands losing grip

A promise on the lips

Failure’s bitter taste

A soul losing faith

And your hand no longer in mine.

In the mirror room once again

Regrets and sorrow on pale skin

Thoughts pouring down as rain

Reality colliding with dreams

And our smile no longer shines.

Agata

When I looked to the stars I’d see myself

Just another wrecked dream in a million

Just waiting to take my place in Hell

But you made your way into my heart

You brought so much light into my life

So there’s no other light I want to look at

Now when I look to the sky I see your eyes,

Always sparkling, glowing, shinning,

So much green beauty in these dark skies.

Just like when you’re holding my hand

And we walk together through days

Lover, I see shadow and light as friends

A second is worth a year next to you

With your love I know I don’t need to be afraid.